But she was so desperate for a child that she and Cruise decided to adopt less than two years later.?? Kidman makes the revelation in an interview with Vanity Fair magazine, in which she also admits she has wanted a child of her own since she was 17.?? Now 40 and married to country music star Keith Urban, she adds: ?I’m yearning to have one. I think I would be very sad if I wasn’t able to have a baby. Keith knows I want one, and he has been getting there slowly.??? Kidman has previously revealed that she discovered she was pregnant by Cruise after he filed for divorce in 2001 – but miscarried weeks later.?? Source